So I have just had thoughts in my head all night tonight. Layne is coming home from a golf trip and I've been trying to break Mylee of some bad habits we got her in which equals no sleep for me! I've been up with her and Derek for the past 3 nights so if this doesn't make sense, at least I have it out of my head! I have been feeling so overwhelmed lately! I wouldn't change my life for a second, everything just catches right up to you and I'm at that point now. I LOVE my calling in church. I am an activity days leader with the 10 and 11yr olds and I love them! I love my partner that I do it with too so when I got a phone call for an interview with the bishop I was completely torn. I wasn't ready to give that calling up! Layne just got called last week as a ward missionary and I was laughing so hard cause we aren't as social as we should be. I go to my interview and the bishop asks what I would think of being an actor on the trek, we just got called to be the ma and pa in August. I'm way excited about that, but someone might have to drag me off the mountain during the 6 mile hike. I just walked a mile tonight and about croaked! Anyway, he said I would have to act and sing. I just started laughing and said nobody wants me to sing or act. Don't know how to do both. He said he was kidding and asked about me being a ward missionary with my husband and keeping the calling that I have as a activity day leader. I'm super excited about it! I just have been feeling so overwhelmed with everything else and know somethings gotta give now. I am going to slow WAY down with photography now. Kinda torn about that too but I've been thinking I needed too anyways. (so if anyone wants pictures, I'm now full until Sept). So we get to go to people that are active members and challenge them to be more outgoing to the people in our neighborhoods that aren't members or inactive. I'm so excited to get to know more people. We pretty much get to go and get to be friends with people for our calling. I'm really impressed too with our bishop and what he wants out of it. He doesn't want us pushing our religion on anyone. He just wants them to feel part of our community and that they can come and participate at things without feeling like they are trying to be converted. I totally agree with that. I believe strongly that everyone is at different stages in life, spiritual too. I believe that some want and need religion and others are ok without it in their lives right now and it's ok. I know that I need it so bad right now. I have such a strong testimony of this gospel because of experiences that have happened to me throughout my life. I could never deny or forget them either. It helps me to try each day to become a stronger and better person. I have many weaknesses and it helps me try harder. I know it's not for everyone and I'm totally fine with that. Some of the people that I look up too tons are in that spot in their life and I don't think any less of them. They are such strong examples to me of so many things. Therefore I'm so excited that we are in this calling together! I can't wait to make myself get out of my comfort zone and meet more people and have their life's influence ours for the better! I know this is such a random post. I usually don't put thoughts like this on here. I keep it for my journal but I've felt like I should so here it is. Take it for what it's worth. It feels good to get some of my thoughts out of my head! Can't wait for the new things ahead but if I'm not quite with it you know why now.
